deepest blue

infatuation strikes again

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 19:09:55 GMT

deepest blue,
well, i'm doing it again. i met someone at work last night whose boyfriend left her at the winery so i took her home. well not home but rather to desert wave, the tanning and hair salon that she runs in kennewick. she was a ballet dancer, thin and gorgeous. blonde hair, blue eyes well spoken and fun t ohang out with. we went tanning in the middle of the night and just chatted for a few hours and i'm totally smitten with her. her boyfriend treats her poorly and it sounds like he acts like a child, at least from the messages he left her wondering where she was after he took off.
this is a terrible habit i've got where when i meet a woman i like i put so much of myself into this nonexistant relationship because i love the feeling, knowing full welll that nothing will come of it. i've gotten better at realizing this so the disappointment really isn't disappointing, but i do love these feelings. the last thing i would want to do is get involved in their dispute but i see their relationship and it just brings back so many memories of sarah. i just want to tell her that when you're unhappy in love you have to do something about it, you have to look past what you're saying to each other and inspect your feelings to the fullest. but it's not my place.
so i keep up hope and see where things go. she wanted me to come by and visit her at work today. how do i say no to that when i feel this way? especially when there are so few actual women that i find truly attractive these days. am i playing a dangerous game by seeing her? she does have a boyfriend and i wouldn't want him to get upset with her because of me. not that i would do anything should the situation arise unless she were single but...whatever, there i go again. i've known her for a day, we've hung out for a 4-5 hours and i was a shoulder to cry on and here i am imagining she ahs feelings for me. lol. it's funny how i do this.
oh well. i'll go visit her and be a friend and be happy that i have that. but ballet dancers, how do you get better than that?
i'll never hide my thoughts from you, you're my deepest blue,
brian

wise words v.1.0

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 18:02:07 GMT

"Instead of all of this energy and effort directed at the war
to end drugs, how about a little attention to drugs which will
end war?" Albert Hofmann

post v2.0

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 20:18:03 GMT

deepest blue,

we'll start this off with something that this space is all about. sharing thoughts and experiences that i won't share on kritik4lm4ss.

i've taken a short hiatus from, shall we say, recreational pharmaceuticals. or perhaps self-medicating. i haven't smoked in a couple of weeks and i finally decided to go buy a quarter. i was wathing television, and was fairly useless at this point, when an advertisement for gilbert auto came on. it seemed like a pretty standard car dealership commercial. guy in suit, screaming at you to buy a car because the prices are so low they're going to give you money to take the vehicles, or some such nonsense. when out of the blue it cuts to a huge close-up of the salesman's head and in a low voice he says, "i want your money," and then all of a sudden the commercial continues as if nothing had happened.

was this poor subliminal messaging, maybe just a bad commercial. or was i just way to high?

kritik4lm4ss

birth

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 19:39:10 GMT

The sun will always shine on you
You turn my ocean deepest blue
I'll never hide my thoughts from you
You're my deepest blue

If mother nature ever chose a name
I'm sure that you would choose the same
I'll never hide my thoughts from you
You're my deepest blue

Am I dreamin now walkin on the moon
And I don't know how to reach you baby
Every time I try to move closer

Am I dreamin now walkin on the moon
And I don't know how to reach you baby
Every time I try to move closer

We've only got this time to prove
That together we can make it through
I'll never hide my dreams from you
You're my deepest blue

If temptation ever came my way
I know the words I'd always say
I'll never hide my love from you
You're my deepest blue

Am I dreamin now walkin on the moon
And I don't know how to reach you baby
Every time I try to move closer

Am I dreamin now walkin on the moon
And I don't know how to reach you baby
Every time I try to move closer

Am I dreamin now walkin on the moon
And I don't know how to reach you baby
Every time I try to move closer

Am I dreamin now walkin on the moon
And I don't know how to reach you baby
Every time I try to move closer

Am I dreamin now